Happy Dust by Aleister Crowley
Snow that fallest from heaven, bear me aloft on thy wings
To the domes of the star-girdled Seven, the abode of
Quintessence of joy and of strength, that, abolishing
future and past,
Mak’st the Present an infinite length, my soul all-One
with the Vast,
The Lone, the Unnameable God, that is ice of His
Without being or form or abode, without motion or
matter, the fold
Where the shepherded Universe sleeps, with nor sense
nor delusion nor dream,
No spirit that wantons or weeps, no thought in its silence
I sit, and am utterly still; in mine eyes is my fathomless
Ablaze to annihilate Will, to crumble my being to dust,
To calcine the dust to an ash, to burn up the ash to an air,
To abolish the air with a flash of the final, the fulminant
All this I have done, and dissolved the primordial germ
of my thought;
I have rolled myself up, and revolved the wheel of my
being to Naught.
Is there even the memory left? That I was, that I am?
It is lost.
As I utter the Word, I am cleft by the last swift spear of
Snow! I am nothing at last; I sit, and am utterly still;
They are perished, the phantoms, and past; they were
born of my weariness-will
When I craved, craved being and form, when the con-
sciousness-cloud was a mist
Precurser of stupor and storm, when I and my shadow
And brought into life all the shapes that confused the
clear space with their marks,
Vain spectres whose vapour escapes, a whirlwind of
No substance have any of these; I have dreamed them in
sickness of lust,
Delirium born of disease-ah, whence was the master,
Imposed on the All? is it true, then, that
something in me
Is subject to fate? Are there two, after all,
that can be?
I have brought all that is to an end; for myself am suffic-
ient and sole.
Do I trick myself now? Shall I rend once again this
I have stripped every garment from space; I have
strangled the secre of Time,
All being is fled from my face, with Motion’s inhibited
Stiller and stiller I sit, till even Infinity fades;
‘Tis an idol-’tis weakness of wit that breeds, in inanity,
Yet the fullness of Naught I become, the deepest and
Contains in its nature the sum of the functions of being
Still as I sit, and destroy all possible trace of the past,
All germ of the future, nor joy nor knowledge alive at the
It is vain, for the Silence is dowered with a nature, the
seed of a name:
Necessity, fearfully flowered with the blossom of possible
I am Necessity? Scry Necessity mother of Fate!
And Fate determines me “I”; and I have the Will to create.
Vast is the sphere, but it turns on itself like the pettiest
And I am the looby that learns that all things equally are.
Inscrutable Nothing, the Gods, the cosmos of Fire and
Suns,atoms, the clouds and the clouds ineluctably dare
I have made the Voyage of Thought, the Voyage of Vision,
To the heart of the Ocean of Naught from the source of
the Spring of I am:
I know myself wholly the brother alike of the All and the
I know that all things are each other, that their sum and
their substance is None;
But the knowledge itself can excel, its fulness hath broken
All’s Truth, and all’s falsehood as well, and-what of the
So, still though I sit, as for ever, I stab to the heart of my
I destroy the last seed of endeavour to seal up my soul
in the shrine
Of Silence, Eternity, Peace; I abandon the Here and the
I cease from the effort to cease; I absolve the dead I from
I am wholly content to be dust, whether that be a mote
or a star,
To live and to love and to lust, acknowledge what seem
for what are,
Not to care what I am, if I be, whence I came, whither go,
how I thrive,
If my spirit be bound or be free, save as Nature contrive.
What I am, that I am, ’tis enough. I am part of a glorious
Am I cast for madness or love? I am cast to esteem them
Am I only a dream in the sleep of some butterfly?
Phantom of fright
Conceived, who knows how, or how deep, in the measure-
less womb of the night?
I imagine impossible thought, metaphysical voids that
Ideas intagible wrought to things less conceivable yet.
It may be. Little I reck -but, assume the existence of
Am I born to be hanged by the neck, a curse from the
hour of my birth?
Am I born to abolish man’s guilt? His horrible heritage,
Or a seed in his wantoness spilt by a jester? I care not
For I understand Do what thou wilt; and that is the whole
of the Law.